You always have to practice and work just as hard as others but only get called in if something happens to the first pick. It feels bad, makes you sad and probably jealous of the "talent" those playing on first string have.
I have been dealing with feelings like this for a while now. Obviously not in the sports area since I have never played football and haven't been very athletic recently or since before kids. I thought the feelings had disappeared but I must have just stuffed them down and tried to forget about them. I tend to do that when I don't know how or want to deal with things, especially in relationships.
Well, they have popped up again and I have been praying about them a lot more than I did when they popped up before. I have finally realized that God is trying to teach me something. Like no kidding right?
It is OK to be second string. To not be called upon unless something happens to the others. It is OK because I am supposed to be relying on God for everything I need. I often forget this and try to do things on my own. He is the one that matters the most and always lets me play for his team no matter the score. Through this life lesson I am slowly letting go of those feelings and relying on Him more. I am a slow learner sometimes, thanks God for your patience.
3 comments:
good words but I'm anxious to hear in what light of your life they are referring to. You will forever be a first string wife, mom and friend!
you are first string in my book! :)) keep your chin up, friend. <3
I don't like this.
I mean, I like that God is teaching and your are absorbing, but not that you feel that way. :(
I love you friend.
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